The big Picture

"Yes, thank God, we don't get the big picture all at once."

I posted that back in October of 2001 on Yahell. Perhaps you are wondering what I was talking about.

My spiritual Journey would sometimes take a great leap forward where I learned much knowledge and gained so much insight into what was going on at the time or something to that effect. I loved it when that happened. Sometimes I referred toi this as getting slapped upside the head by God.

Sometimes though it wasn't a happy time when this happened, the Loss of both of my parents for instance. The death of my father after years of suffering with cancer, years later, my mother passing away within 48 hours of going into the hospital with a blood clot. I learned a boat load form each of these events.

Also with the message board at Yahoo, I sometimes would learn a great deal with a conversation I was involved in or witnessing conversations others were engaged in. At times, it was awe inspiring. Great huge amounts of spiritual wisdom was gathered and spread about through the message board and then without warning Yahell would come through and with out warning delete this great collection of spiritual wealth and understanding.

But through all this, knowledge gathered, As a snowball rolling down hill in the snow, gaining size and strength. Slowly putting the pieces together and filling in some of the blanks. Even when I didn't realize that there were blanks or pieces needed to fill the puzzle.

Then other times, waiting and wondering if I was ever going to advance at all. Used to drive me nuts at times. Then when I had almost given up, quit trying so hard to advance spiritually, again the doors would open up, so to speak and I was allowed to advance just a tad bit further. So in that I learned ever so slowly that to advance sometimes, one needs to not try to advance. That and I learned about if its meant to be.

But that is another post.

Meeting up ...

"I am not sure if you have come to the realization yet
that everything and everyone put before you is put there
for a definite reason. There is a reason I posted what I
posted and there is a reason why you were fortunate or
unfortunate (the Ying and Yang) enough to have stumbled
on to it.

Think of the vastness of the Internet. There is God only
knows how many different sites and places for you to wander
through in your journey. We each, in our own separate ways,
have found this particular spot. I am so thankful for this
blog, words cannot describe. I am also very thankful that
the powers that be have allowed for the postings to continue.

Why wasn't this blog here, say five years ago? Because it
wasn't time for us to meet yet. It is all related and tied
in together. Pretty amazing, huh?"

This is basically what I posted some seven years ago on the Yahell message boards. If you are reading this today, and you are getting something from this, perhaps a connection has been made here that you ought to listen to and follow up on. I personally get goosebumps in going over some of this "old" stuff and rehashing it here. It is good exercise for me and I am glad you are here to possibly venture forth and learn as well.

Take care and may Gods love wash over you in ever so gentle waves.

Beamer

Cactus Jack ...

"Cactus Jack
by: avatarmundi (48/M/U.S.A.)
07/14/03 10:57 am
Msg: 1241 of 1243

The state of the human collective consciousness manifests itself
everyday in our world as our wars, diseases, personal and
collective tragedies, noble aspirations and achievements,
simple kindnesses, play, work and efforts towards peace.

For a while CJ stood with us shoulder to shoulder and did more
than his share of heavy lifting in the 'great work' of which we are
all a part. His work, his influence transcends the existence of
his messages on these boards. The environment for the
human spirit has been improved by his contributions... he helped
pave the way(in consciousness) for others to find more freedom
from the tyranny of fear.

That Freedom is his legacy.

Each of us will eventually walk that path and leave any undone
work to younger, stronger and hopefully wiser hands."

Image from Photoflavor

I didn't get to know Cactus Jack nearly as well as I would have liked. I didn't agree with every thing he said or posted. But, he was a very caring, highly intelligent human being which made a great impact on me and countless others within the short time I knew him. I haven't thought about him in a while and thought this might work as an introduction to allow you to get a feel for this kind gentle individual who is still sorely missed.

He was a brother to me.

Beamer

Another poem from Word wrangler ...

In rememberance of a grand man
by: wordwrangler_99 (33/M/Crooked River Ranch, Oreg) 10/29/01 12:10 am
Msg: 11 of 171

It was about this time 3 yrs. ago my grandfather passed away, I wrote this as a way of then dealing with the loss. I re-post it now as he has been on my mind of late.

For Grandpa

Why he had to suffer so
I?ll never understand
In all my days upon the earth
I?ve met no greater man
He gave freely of himself
Yet asked for no return
Held firmly to his beliefs
Never did he spurn
He lavished love onto his kids
And even more than that
Was never too pre-occupied
To sit and have a chat
He was a doting husband
To his loving wife
And all the folks in his small town
Knew him upon sight
He had that special twinkle
That sparkled in his eye
Please dear Lord, tell me
Why grandpa had to die
His body first betrayed him
His legs just wouldn?t work
An active man his whole life
Yet now he had to shirk
Lou Gherig?s they called it
But hell is what it was
A long and slow decaying
As faculties turned to fuzz
I watched this man of vigor
As his body did unwind
Struggle for his dignity
For it doesn?t affect the mind
He watched and smiled bravely
As his body fell apart
But no power on God?s green earth
Could take my grandpa?s heart
Soon he couldn?t lift his arms
Then he couldn?t lift his head
We had to roll him on his side
And take him out of bed
But even near the end
When he could no longer eat
The spark remained in his eyes
He?d not admit defeat
Then that final fateful day
His lungs refused to breathe
And the greatest man I ever knew
Went to heaven I believe

-WW

Back again ...

I guess it's meant to be ...

I have come across an archive I set up of the Yahell Spirituality message board that is still possibly floundering in some form. I haven't been there in a long time.

One poet that visited us from time to time on the message boards was a guy by the name of Word wrangler. He was and hopefully still is amazing in his poetry. This is one of his poems and I give him full credit and props and what ever else he needs in me reposting his work without permission.





Blessings

Oh, how you must love me
For I have forsaken you so often
Yet never have you abandoned me
I know not who you are
Only what you are
You are purity and hope
Despite my best efforts
You have saved me from myself
Set me on a new road
A new journey
You gave me sight when I was blind
Shed light upon my darkness
Granted me knowledge in my ignorance
Drowned my bitterness in love
My hope now springs eternal
My eyes are wet with awe
Each day brings forth a new miracle
Each night a new gratitude
I have found that which you gave me
I’ve discovered peace
And in so discovering
Revealed my soul.
-WW

You have a blessed day.

Beamer